6/12/09 Update

ryann is now doing mini push-ups. she can push up pretty high when she’s upset and trying to look for mommy.

she can also roll over onto her tummy to sleep and did it a few times last and this week, although she hasn’t done it for a couple of nites now.

and, for the past couple of nites she hasn’t been sleeping well. possibly teething causing her a bit of distress. she still catnaps during the day.

jenna has become even more defiant and pisses me off alot. she won’t listen, talks back, and is beginning to physically retaliate with lite slapping.

Playful Feet

lil BG is just starting to discover her feet. soon she’ll be getting her toes into her mouth! :^O

Help

i need help. i have been miserable…i may have ppd. i’ve had thoughts of leaving everything behind. i’m overwhelmed with a very demanding baby. an under-appreciated kindergartener, and an unsympathetic, non-understanding spouse. i really want to leave my spouse more than anything else.

4 Months Well Baby Check-Up

40 mins till pau hana time. getting off early so that i can take bg for her well baby check up and get her 2nd series of shots. i’m anticipating a bit of crying after she gets poked…hopefully it won’t last too long…might possibly need to bf her b4 we leave. hope she doesn’t get any fever…but it’s possible she might…i think the the last time she got one.

New Family Member

it’s been a long while since i’ve blogged here, and i just wanted to let others know (if there’s any readers following) that on jan. 16, 2009 my 2nd daughter was born.

she was born at 6:42am at kapiolani children’s & women’s medical center, weighing in at 7lbs 10oz.

Finally

the bleeding is finally subsiding, turning color like it normally does. i’d say it lasted 7 days. what a relief! my skin was getting very irritated wearing only pads for the duration.

i read on a forum that some women’s bleeding were lasting for longer than mine, anywhere from 10 days to several weeks. yuck.

so, no dr. says to what a cycle before trying to conceive. being that i’m irregular, that might be a few months. oh well. maybe i should try to plan out the conception so that we will concieve a boy, at least according to the chinese pregnancy calendar.

The Blob

today my lower back has been killing me!  every time it starts to hurt i know that i’m gonna get some kind of vaginal discharge.  the bleeding today has been heavier than the previous 2 days, and there’s been a couple of instances where the discharge was sooo thick and large i wondered if it was normal.

so i called my ob/gyn, of course he’s not in today and won’t be in ’til monday, so i try the physician’s exchange.  he’s signed out ’til 9pm and another dr. was filling in for him.  his response to the blob was that since i wasn’t feeling any pain (other than the normal kind of pain i get when i have my period) it was probably residual lining expelling itself, and it shouldn’t happen beyond another 24 hrs.  i had a feeling it was residual lining, but hey it was humongous that i had to be sure.  i felt reassured that nothing was wrong.

i even took a picture of it (yeah, gross i know) just in case when i go back in for my follow up and tell my dr about it, he might wanna know what it looked like for sure.

Contractions

about 1am i started getting contractions about 10-15 min apart and progressing to about 5-10 min apart.

what was happening i think was that my uterus was trying to get back to it’s normal size, so it started contracting, like it would happen after if i had given birth.  i think all the contracting also caused the lining of the uterine wall to finally shed and i finally started to bleed like i was having my period.  it was heavy and around 5:30am it really gushed out like the dam was broken.  yuk.  so i wasn’t having anymore contractions and after the bleeding started, and i was feeling a bit better, except for the pain in my lower back i get every time i have my period.

D&C

i thought i had posted an entry about my pregnancy, but it’s not showing, so maybe it got lost in cyberspace.  anyway, it was discovered through an ultrasound that i had a ‘miscarriage.’  technically a blighted ovum, where the embryo doesn’t develop into a fetus most likely due to chromosomal problems.  so nature took its course and ‘aborted’ the pregnancy by destroying the ovum, but left the gestational sac.  so the dr. suggested and i agreed the best thing to do would be the d&c.  i didn’t want to wait for my body to expel the sac on its own, who know when that might happen, and the longer that was inside, the higher risk for infection.

so today i had the d&c (dilation and curettage) done at the dr’s office.  it wasn’t as bad as i thought it would be, and it was all over within 45 min.

there wasn’t any pain, just a slight discomfort.  the dr. had me take 800mg of ibuprofen 1 hr before the procedure and an antibiotic when i got to the office.  he did a very good job at numbing, didn’t feel the needle at all.  when he started the curettage, there was no pain, but i could feel the suction pulling at my insides, that’s where most of the discomfort was.  after it was done, i cleaned up and walked out the door.  so far there’s very little bleeding, which is good in my opinion.

so i’m feeling fine right now, just some very minor discomfort now and then.  dr. says to wait one menstrual cycle before trying again to conceive.

Am I Back For Good?

i’m back…but will it be for good this time?  it’s been almost 6 months since i posted my last entry…where has the time gone?  i’ve been so busy at work and then i come home, and still busy with family stuff that i haven’t had much quality time to spend with my hobbies.

today i’m ‘lucky’ to be home instead of work, but that means i’m home with the little girl, who’s not feeling well, which means not enough time to work on my hobbies.  right now she’s off napping, so that’s why i have the chance to post something today.

after i post this i’m gonna start working on a couple of custom orders for earrings and bracelets.  they’re from someone working in the same office…she saw my Glimmers of Color bracelet and liked it so much she asked for one, which led to another order from her friend, who also asked for earrings, which then led to my office worker to also ask for earrings.

talk about busy!  i better get outta here so that i can start on those orders since the little one is still asleep.

until i post again…